Rollercoasters

So today is kind of a downer. I've realized that I go up and down with this whole healing thing. A few days ago I was ready to fight the world in a rage. A couple days ago I was all about exercising, eating right, and healing (I still am, but it's a off day). Today, I'm trying to hold on to that energy. I'm lonely. I hate it. If only I had a fellow survivor in the area that wanted to work on healing together. I feel like that may make it easier. Apparantly today I'm trying to get past that 'first mile'...again.